twisted face

There should be an icon on my keyboard for a twisted face. Anyone can do a smiley or frowny face. As you can tell the news isn't good. I measured myself this past weekend and I'm exactly the same inches in all places as I was when I measured myself last October. "At least you haven't gained weight" you say? Yes, this is true and boy do I know how to gain weight but the point is, I've been trying to lose it! Well I guess I will have to be better at eating and exercise. It's the same old comforting answer. I've got to do better... Comforting answer, I think not. Depressing more like. I need a new motivation to get me through the times when I have to grab something quick to eat and I would really like to eat a giant cheeseburger and fries instead of stopping for something more better like Subway. Most times when this happens it is because I haven't planned ahead and I've waited too long between meals so I become ravenous.

I once got dubbed Rampage Robin as my wrestler name (long story not to be shared, trust) but sometimes I think that maybe it should be Ravenous Robin. That would be much more scary. Watch out for Ravenous Robin! She's on the rampage! Steer clear from her path because she'll tear you apart if she doesn't get something to eat soon! Truly terrifying. Ok ok. So a little dramatic but that is what the voice inside my head feels like if I don't eat at regular intervals. Must be more careful with this in the future but sometimes situation doesn't permit.

How do you stay motivated and on track for your goals?

eat to live not live to eat

Last week I was out of town on a work trip and ate out every meal. Why is it that I couldn't just do something simple? When I'm on vacation I always think that I have to try some favorite local joint. I'm not going to miss out on anything. Food is food. As a result I had a lot of calories and not much exercise. Oh dear. This week I'm broke so that solves the eating out problem. Monday I hiked up Bells Canyon to the lower reservoir. Tuesday I went up Big Cottonwood Canyon and did a short yet steep hike. Wednesday I decided to walk to the post office to mail a package instead of drive the 5 minutes it takes to get there by car. On the way home I took a less direct route and ended up being gone for 2 hours.

The best was today though. I swam laps in the pool at the gym for 45 minutes. Gliding my arms up and over the water to the rhythm of my breathing is such a soothing form of exercise. I think of myself as slim and athletic. Sliding through the water like a dolphin. Why don't I swim more often? Why do I make excuses to not exercise? I feel so much better when I'm done so why wouldn't I want that?