back burner

Yikes! Losing weight has been on the back burner for a few weeks. I have become lazy and just don't feel like going to the gym anymore. I really should go because I pay for it and that is a waste of money if I don't use it! I need something new to motivate me to want to lose weight besides the normal stuff. I'm in the 'I don't really care anymore' cycle and I need to move on to the 'I feel better about myself when I exercise and eat right' cycle. How do you stay in the second one without lapsing back into the first one? Sometimes I use excuses like, 'if my schedule wasn't so erratic' or 'I get plenty of exercise at work' (benefit to my job but it definitely isn't enough to lose weight!) I really like to go hiking but its been too hot lately and I haven't had time. Another excuse. I think I live my life on excuses. What a way to live. Wow. I need a new distraction. Something to keep me from wanting to eat food all the time and to stay active. Motivation. Excitement. Maybe a little drama. Hmmmm.