Time to stop being fat.

I have reached a point where I need to stop making excuses and start really working to lose weight again. I weigh the same as I did five months ago. Somehow I must convince myself that sugar and deep fried foods are poisonous. Surely that will prevent me from eating junk food! What happened to my goals? Why have I been such a slacker? I want this more than anything so why am I not doing everything I can to obtain it? I want to have control over my life! I want people to see something besides a fat girl. It is saddening and disappointing that even though I've gotten smaller people still see a fat girl. A friend was on the phone with his boss and was trying to get him to remember who I was. Nothing rang a bell until I was referred to as big Robin. Instantly he remembered who I was. It didn't offend me because its true, I'm big. What makes me sad is that is ALL that people see when they look at me. It is such a shallow world. I could be rich, brilliant, beautiful, or talented but all people will see is fat fat fat. I'm done with being fat.